Well, SYTYCD went rather well last night. A few of the routines were so-so, others pretty good. I didn't think any were over the top fantastic, but a few came close. I'm honestly waiting for the top 10, that's when it gets fun and interesting. I have to say, though, the choreographers are kicking it into high gear this year and making the dancers dance their little butts off.
I'll watch the results tonight in about 15 mins. Thank you DVR. How I love thee.
No, I didn't watch Real Housewives of NJ. Gah. I'd rather watch paint dry.
I usually watch documentaries during the summer. I haven't seen any good ones recently, but I'm sure they'll start popping up.
So, yeah, I feel stuck.
I'm still not writing. The last month or so has been because of the move and stress. Things are back to normal, as normal as it gets for me, but I'm still not writing. I don't have a character to write about. I have an idea of the type of character I want, but nothing is coming to me. I could probably do some brainstorming to work out traits and personality, but I also need a plot. That would help, right? It'll come to me, I'm sure. I just need patience, like a good young Jedi.
I feel stuck with Tiva. I've sent Tiva out to a couple places recently, just to see what'll happen, but the query needs work. I don't have a sysnopsis, and the books need a once through for editing still. My BFF had such high hopes for Tiva. I tried not to catch his enthusiasm because I didn't want to be let down, so I guess it worked because she doesn't seem to be going anywhere. It makes me sad. I know the books are good. Yes, they need more work, but the story is great, the characters are fun, and it's not like anything else out there right now.
I feel stuck with Lucky too. Maybe her story is just TOO different? I don't know. Agent after agent says they "see talent", "it's well written", "has an interesting concept" but no one wants to take her on? What's up with that? Even the few editors who've rejected me say that it's good, but not what they are looking for right now. Grr. I still have her out to a few agents, one editor (though I doubt she'll get back to me) and two publishers. I'll probably wait another month or so before I send anywhere else. It looks like I may have to start out smaller than my aspriations and go with a publisher geared toward Ebooks and print instead of the "big" publishers. Though, I'm in Dorchester's new E-Slush pile. Keep your fingers crossed. After reading some of their new books, I can't see how they could say no to me, so I'm staying positive on this one!
I feel a little stuck in general I guess. I've cut back on Facebook and Twitter recently, and I haven't kept up with my blog very well. I skipped a few of my writer's meetings the last three months for various reasons. It sounds like depression but I don't think it is. I think I've tried to do so many things for the last year or so that I truly need a break.
"Real writers write every day" right? Then I guess I'm not quite a real writer yet. Putting my heart and soul into 5 (6 actually) books the last five years of my life has obviously taken it's toll. I went through the whole editing process with Tiva....almost to the point of production, and had the rug pulled out from under me. Now, seeing Lucky in limbo makes me even more sad.
While it's true I will never stop writing, I'm not sure I have the energy or the time or the inclination to spend another five years working on things that are going to take up space on my hard drive and clog my email with rejections. I'm really not sure. Yes, I knew the publishing industry was hard. Heck, I got SLAMMED by about 100 people on AOL when I posted the blurb for my "Play Nice" book. Granted, the book was crap, but those nasty people made me feel like utter and complete shit. It made my skin thick to critisism, but it doesn't really help the emotional side of "completing your baby" and no one gives a crap about it and no one wants to publish it.
I've learned the craft. I have my own voice. I don't follow trends. I'm not the best writer, will never be, because I believe there is always someone better. But I don't follow the "formula". I don't write tranditional stories. I've tried and it got me no where, so I stick with what I'm comfortable with and what I like. Maybe that's my failing in the end?
June 18, 2009
June 8, 2009
Just breathe....
Well, I finally have a moment to sit and do nothing. So, of course, the first thing I do? A blog.
After having less than two weeks to find a new place to live (long story), brother and I are finally settled into our new apartment. Had a few minor snags along the way, but nothing major. Mostly, I was worried that one of my dogs was going to have a hard time adjusting.
She's used to having a yard and wasn't doing her business while on the leash. Thankfully, she's okay and doing what dogs do best. Giving me love and driving me crazy. I swear, between the two of my dogs, they are Marley, from Marley and Me all rolled into one!
Anyway, everything is set up, all the stuff is put away and the apartment is nice and clean. I have great friends that helped me out above and beyond and I couldn't thank them enough, even by feeding them. Over all the place is not very big, but it'll do it's job. I just have to get used to paying an extra $400 a month now. Yikes. Rent in NJ is horrible, the only place worse if CA and NYC probably. Ugh.
I've cut back on Facebook and Twitter the last few weeks, just so I could concentrate on moving and switching addresses, and going to the bank, and watching the money flow out, out, out of my bank account. Thank goodness for my mom, she's a life saver! <3
How's this for sucks? I went back to Comcast from Fios only to find out that the apartment complex is getting Fios in two months. GRR! I hate you Comcast! It might be worth it to pay the fee and cancel, but we'll see what happens in a few months. Yeah, sucks.
Onto funner stuff, sorta:
I submitted Lucky to a few more places the last couple of months, got two rejections, but still waiting on others. I have a small list of other places to submit if current ones say no, after that, I don't know what I'll do...I think Lucky's options are numbered. She's a hard sell, I know, but still...my writing is on par with some of the other stuff I've seen recently, I'm at a loss.
*shrug*
No new ideas on the writing front, so I've done absolutely no writing in about three months save blogs. I've skipped a few of my writers meetings as well, mostly been A. busy or B. not interested in the program. Probably skipping one or two more over the next few months, but no worries, I'm still involved and going!
Only watching two shows this summer, So You Think You Can Dance and True Blood. SYTYCD is going to be FANTASTIC this year! OMG I can't wait for Wednesday! And they're doing another season for the fall!! YAY! While my reality TV Heart will always belong to Survivor, with AI a close second, SYTYCD touches me more than either of them. A few times I got teary eyed during the auditions. Not all because of the sob stories, more the inspirational ones. Good stuff.
The most awesome thing happened to me and my guy the other day!!! We were debating dinner. I'm very indecisive and he likes to make me choose because of this, but I wanted him to pick because well, that's how I am. So finally, we get to a red light and he says "Wendy's?" I say, "Yep, that works." Swing into the turn lane and head to the drive thru. We order our food, get to the window and the chick tells us that the lady in the car in front of us paid for our food. Score! I beep and we both waved, with huge ass smiles on our faces as she drove away.
I meant to go on craigslist and thank her but I forgot and by the time I remembered it would have been too late. So, lady in the silver mini-van, thank you!! You made my day. Well, my week actually. Though, I'm certain if I were alone, that never would have happened. He seems to be a bit of a lucky charm. No pun intended.
A lot has happened in the last few weeks and I know I'm probably blanking on a few important things, but now that I've got my computer set up, internet is running and things around here are calming down somewhat, I'll be back blogging as much as I can!
Keep dreaming peeps!
After having less than two weeks to find a new place to live (long story), brother and I are finally settled into our new apartment. Had a few minor snags along the way, but nothing major. Mostly, I was worried that one of my dogs was going to have a hard time adjusting.
She's used to having a yard and wasn't doing her business while on the leash. Thankfully, she's okay and doing what dogs do best. Giving me love and driving me crazy. I swear, between the two of my dogs, they are Marley, from Marley and Me all rolled into one!
Anyway, everything is set up, all the stuff is put away and the apartment is nice and clean. I have great friends that helped me out above and beyond and I couldn't thank them enough, even by feeding them. Over all the place is not very big, but it'll do it's job. I just have to get used to paying an extra $400 a month now. Yikes. Rent in NJ is horrible, the only place worse if CA and NYC probably. Ugh.
I've cut back on Facebook and Twitter the last few weeks, just so I could concentrate on moving and switching addresses, and going to the bank, and watching the money flow out, out, out of my bank account. Thank goodness for my mom, she's a life saver! <3
How's this for sucks? I went back to Comcast from Fios only to find out that the apartment complex is getting Fios in two months. GRR! I hate you Comcast! It might be worth it to pay the fee and cancel, but we'll see what happens in a few months. Yeah, sucks.
Onto funner stuff, sorta:
I submitted Lucky to a few more places the last couple of months, got two rejections, but still waiting on others. I have a small list of other places to submit if current ones say no, after that, I don't know what I'll do...I think Lucky's options are numbered. She's a hard sell, I know, but still...my writing is on par with some of the other stuff I've seen recently, I'm at a loss.
*shrug*
No new ideas on the writing front, so I've done absolutely no writing in about three months save blogs. I've skipped a few of my writers meetings as well, mostly been A. busy or B. not interested in the program. Probably skipping one or two more over the next few months, but no worries, I'm still involved and going!
Only watching two shows this summer, So You Think You Can Dance and True Blood. SYTYCD is going to be FANTASTIC this year! OMG I can't wait for Wednesday! And they're doing another season for the fall!! YAY! While my reality TV Heart will always belong to Survivor, with AI a close second, SYTYCD touches me more than either of them. A few times I got teary eyed during the auditions. Not all because of the sob stories, more the inspirational ones. Good stuff.
The most awesome thing happened to me and my guy the other day!!! We were debating dinner. I'm very indecisive and he likes to make me choose because of this, but I wanted him to pick because well, that's how I am. So finally, we get to a red light and he says "Wendy's?" I say, "Yep, that works." Swing into the turn lane and head to the drive thru. We order our food, get to the window and the chick tells us that the lady in the car in front of us paid for our food. Score! I beep and we both waved, with huge ass smiles on our faces as she drove away.
I meant to go on craigslist and thank her but I forgot and by the time I remembered it would have been too late. So, lady in the silver mini-van, thank you!! You made my day. Well, my week actually. Though, I'm certain if I were alone, that never would have happened. He seems to be a bit of a lucky charm. No pun intended.
A lot has happened in the last few weeks and I know I'm probably blanking on a few important things, but now that I've got my computer set up, internet is running and things around here are calming down somewhat, I'll be back blogging as much as I can!
Keep dreaming peeps!
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